SugarBeatAngel

You were the Chemo Queen. Your strength and courage was an inspiration to us all. You never once complained, at least not to me. You kept your smile painted on even when we could see the pain in your eyes. It amazes me how a month can make such a difference. You were doing so well that day. I can't imagine. I can't imagine. I love you my sweet, sweet girl. You were the Chemo Queen.

The days have ticked by so slowly. So how can it be that it's already Autumn? I used to love this time of year. Now it comes bearing sorrow and vivid memories. How were we to have known? And it'll be December before you know it. That day is coming soon. That day we all sat down together for the last time. That day will never be the same for us anymore. What do we do now? How are we supposed to carry on? And it'll be December before you know it. And it will never again be happy. There won't be so many faces around. There won't be the cheer and the laughter. So how will we carry on when there's still so much left unsaid? And for

You're not punishing me, baby. You're only punishing yourself. Trying to prove a point to somebody who doesn't give a damn. When will you learn that it's fruitless? Nobody is gonna lose any sleep over what you've done except for you. You're the only person that has to live with yourself for the rest of your life. Don't be silly, darling. Don't be silly. You're not punishing me. You're only punishing yourself.

You're a bit on the immature side, aren't you? It shocks me really. I know I told myself I'd never be shocked by a person's maturity level ever again. Not after the atrocities I had seen in others. I mean, how could it possibly get any worse? Yet here I stand, flabbergasted. I don't know why I expected you to be more mature than you are. Maybe it was your age that tricked me, that you were older than me. That I somehow assumed because you'd seen more years than I had... That you were somehow better for it. Now, I'm not saying I'm not immature. I know I can be in many ways. There've been times where I was forced to sink down a coup